Meditation

I don't know about you but....I have a hard time personally with sitting down and doing a meditation daily. Its not because I don't want to meditate or I don't believe in the benifits. Its mostly due to the fact that I really have a thing  about routine.
I hate routine or any kind of structured set of rules that must be followed.
I recognize that getting more organized or keeping a schedule may be benifitial but...when I sit down to actually do it I really struggle.
I want to meditate daily...but it seems that after a few days of this I get...bored and give up.
I also have a thing about doing things others tell me to do, I just balk at any kind of direction.
Even if I recognize that the person probably has a better idea of what to do...I really don't like being corrected or being told what or how to do something.
That being said, I just started my first meditation.
Again.
I know I said this a few weeks ago but this time I really do think I'll pull this off.
I have no idea how but... :D
I'm shooting for 15-20 min a day, everyday, for 2 weeks to start.
Preferably first thing in the morning, but I'm gonna leave my evenings open in case I just don't want to get up in the morning and meditation just isn't enough of a motivation.

Tonight I did my 20 min meditation, one I found in a book and have some interesting observations.
I was listening to some NA music, drums, flutes and some words that have no immediate meaning. I relaxed to my breathing but was disturbed slightly by a 'presence' in the room with me. I ignored it, and it left. I think I could describe it as in a huff...which is kind of funny...in an odd way.
Near the middle I felt an odd sensation in the area of my third eye, the chakra where intuition stems from. it wasn't pain exactly, not pleasant though and it was gone as soon as I put my attention elsewhere.I also was getting alot of faces and smiling people, not the nice smiles you get from friends but the ones you get from someone who is amused at what you are doing even thought they know a better way but won't tell you.
Fun all around.
The meditiation began with a phrase, you know something to think on in the back of your head while concentrating on the meditation.
Something about this being a journey and taking the first step.
Appropriate if a little vague...

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