Man...she wasn't kidding....my head hurt...

Yesterday I went to my usual spot near my tree. I sat down and meditated. I was merging with the trees spirit, much like you would if your merging with the earth...just a little slower and more engrossing.
I was actually getting quite deep...or starting to at least when suddenly my cell phone goes off with a warning that a text message is coming through.
I am so beating myself over the head...why didn't I turn the darn thing off?
Or at least on vibrate mode....or silent or any number of other settings that would have made it less likely to disturb me.
Was I subconciously wanting to be disturbed?
Obviously my subconcious didn't realize the pain I would be in from the broken link.
It wasn't horrible really...but I shudder to think how it would have been had I gone any deeper...
I was warned that a quick exit would be painful.
I am now more aware of the consequences of my actions.
Next time the phone goes off.
Oh, and it wasn't even an emergency either...my sis only wanted toknow my BF middle name....for some obscure reason....grrrrr.
my head loathed her at that point...and I did have to drive home...in the rain.
bad night.
Anyway...once my head stopped hurting I did a tarot reading about certain things in my life that I am worried about...I got some interesting readings.
Not that they were surprising....just interesting.
Tonight I'm thinking of reading on the...Oh...last nights reading covered my spiritual path as well, in a roundabout way.
It said that in my spiritual path I need to push past mediocrity...which to me means that I have to break away from my current path, Christianity, and move toward something that really personifies what I truly believe and can get excited for.
It also said I should be sensible about things like money.
:)
Just before I bought a book that I really can't afford right now.
Funny that right?
 I'm actually quite dissapointed with it at the moment as well...It had a list of references....3 of which are dead links...not a good omen.
Also, some of its quotes contradict another book of mine, from a more reliable source.
Go Figure...I might just copy all the good stuff and return the book itself...
It does have a detailed stratagy for living as a solitary Druid though, I will give it points for that.
The rituals look good on the offset but I haven't tried any yet....time will tell if it is worth the 12 dollars I spent.

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