A little stagnation is in my future...

 Hey there!
Its been a bit since I last posted...and I just thought I would get you up to speed on what I'm doing....I just made my own set of runes...and I have done my daily ritual for two days straight now...I missed Ostara...I didn't get my Praise Offering done in time and so I just did my ritual as per usual...I'm going to celebrate the Summer Solstice though and I should have my ritual down by then and have an Offering worthy of the season as well. I had a poem I was going to read but...I had written it a year ago and was just really picking it because I had no other option.
I picked up a silver plated bowl that I am thinking of using as my Well, the one I have now can be used as the Whiskey/Ale bowl. I usually put the dry offerings together in a bowl and then spread them outside later...then put the liquid offerings in another bowl for later as well.
The book I read the ritual from is a little vague on how to set out the offerings and could be read that one bowl be used for all....but that just turns into mush and it really isn't appetizing at all....so separate bowls for the dry and wet offerings for now.
My mother is really sick right now, so between me playing nursemaid and school and work I don't really have too much time outside of the weekends to post here...so be prepared for that.
I'm also thinking about starting a meditation habit, starting monday...I'll let you know how that goes.
I haven't visited my birch tree since I last posted so I might go visit him today or tommorow, I kind of miss just hanging out. Strange but true.
The mini retreat is going on the 4-7th and I really am looking forward to actually being around like minded people for once and learning what I can from those more experienced than me. I'll be posting about that after I go...which means you might have to wait a week, it being on the weekend and all.
I've been having a hard time recently...my mother is really sick...maybe dying....and she won't do anything about it...shes commiting slow suicide and it is painful to watch.
I don't know what to do really...nothing I do will make her want to save herself.
I know life is a cycle and that death is just one of the transformations that a life goes through but its still hard to watch someone you love slowly kill themselves and lose hope in themselves and others that love them.


I think that's it....so ttyl!

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