My Path

I mean that quite literally..I got home late a few nights back and decided to still do my daily ritual before I went to bed. Warning, tired people should not mess with fire. I have a small candle that is on my altar that I light in the course of my ritual. It really didn't seem like a problem but...when you mix a large piece of flammable material with flame...it turns into a rather hot topic really quickly. Mix in that my reflexes were a little slowed due to my exhausted state and you have a big problem waiting to happen. That's right, my altar cloth caught on fire. I was a little slow putting it out, with the bowl of water I have on my altar representing the Well. I was a little shaken. I finished the ritual, I was almost done anyway, sans the flame. A quarter of the cloth was burned away and my room smelled strongly of burnt feathers for the next couple of hours. Even with Febreeze and the window open. Next time I get home late I'm just going to wait until morning....

I just need to vent...alot of things are going on right now ....and I really can't talk about anything else...not right now. I just got off from school a little over a week ago and I am supposed to be having a bit of a lay ii, relaxing for about a week before going back to school, right? WRONG! Dead Wrong! My mom, who is a diabetic, has decided to ruin my week off. Not on purpose but it still makes me a little mad. I'm also very distressed about what she's done this time. Well, you know how diabetics usually have major health problems if they don't take care of themselves properly. Even if they do take care, there are still issues but they are less severe. My mother does not take care of her diabetes like she should. SO, she has major issues. A few years back she nearly died because she was so deep in denial about her diese that she didn't go to the doctor for a simple cut on her foot, which soon turned into a Gangrene infection. She had to hav...

 Hey there! Its been a bit since I last posted...and I just thought I would get you up to speed on what I'm doing....I just made my own set of runes...and I have done my daily ritual for two days straight now...I missed Ostara...I didn't get my Praise Offering done in time and so I just did my ritual as per usual...I'm going to celebrate the Summer Solstice though and I should have my ritual down by then and have an Offering worthy of the season as well. I had a poem I was going to read but...I had written it a year ago and was just really picking it because I had no other option. I picked up a silver plated bowl that I am thinking of using as my Well, the one I have now can be used as the Whiskey/Ale bowl. I usually put the dry offerings together in a bowl and then spread them outside later...then put the liquid offerings in another bowl for later as well. The book I read the ritual from is a little vague on how to set out the offerings and could be read that one bowl b...

I went over to my usual tree, an older birch tree in a park near where I live. I brought headphones to drown out the sounds of the expressway. I was there for about an hour and got really good and centered...I don't think I communicated of anything but it was a good meditation session anyway. I think I'll take a friend of mines advice and try to merge with the earth first. I think there has to be some connection, and an exchange of energy because after a session I am really drained but not to the point where I can't function or anything. My thoughts kinda drift towards Ostra at this point. It kind of make sense, I was around growing things and that really is what Ostra/Easter is about really. The rebirth after the winter or the fruition of what was planted in Imbolc. As a beginner I really have no set traditions around this time of year, beyond the usual Easter celebrations. Easter doesn't show up till april though so I could actually do both. My family, besides my...

Yesterday I went to my usual spot near my tree. I sat down and meditated. I was merging with the trees spirit, much like you would if your merging with the earth...just a little slower and more engrossing. I was actually getting quite deep...or starting to at least when suddenly my cell phone goes off with a warning that a text message is coming through. I am so beating myself over the head...why didn't I turn the darn thing off? Or at least on vibrate mode....or silent or any number of other settings that would have made it less likely to disturb me. Was I subconciously wanting to be disturbed? Obviously my subconcious didn't realize the pain I would be in from the broken link. It wasn't horrible really...but I shudder to think how it would have been had I gone any deeper... I was warned that a quick exit would be painful. I am now more aware of the consequences of my actions. Next time the phone goes off. Oh, and it wasn't even an emergency either...my sis o...

I know I said I would visit my Birch tree today but...I just never got the chance...at least not yet...I may later tonight...if I can and I'm not too tired. I get off from my mid term around 8pm so I should be able to go..and the upside of it being so late is that I am less likely to be observed or be self-conscious. I'm going to try that Tree melding today. I'll post later... ----- Well......Its really late, cold, rainy and I have no umbrella. I am going to go later tomorrow evening for sure though...just after work around 6pm....I'll bring an umbrella this time.

I didn't get a chance to visit my birch tree today...and I am really surprised how many times I actually missed it. All I'm doing right now is sitting near the tree and reading...occasionally making comments at the tree...not much communication yet...at least none that I can hear...I'm actually going to try to go early in the morning and try to Meld with the Tree to see is that helps....I found the technique here at PaganSpace.net and am curious to feel it work. I've never actually sat down and talked with a tree before so it'll be a new experience. Oh...I also wanted to specify that I really do think the tree is indeed a birch...I have pictures ....let me know if you disagree.   It isn't the same tree that I am hanging out with but it is one that is similar...The leaves are the same as far as I can tell. The bark is a silvery white and papery and fragile looking. It really is a distinctive looking tree, I really don't know how it could be mistaken for a...

In Blamires book the first exercise is that we have to imagine how Ireland was transformed into the land it is today by the people/Peoples who claimed sovereignty over it. Then we are to compare it to our own lives and how people who have effected us have shaped us into the persons we are today starting from our earliest memories. I've been influenced by many people throughout my short life...this is going to get kind of personal...I'm kind of dubious. Its not exactly comforting that nobody reads this. Logically...according to many studies the most influential persons in someones life will be thier family or the persons who raised them. I was no different except for the fact that what my family didn't do influenced me more on a basic level than what they in fact did do. I'm kind of gearing myself up for a long rant on the injustice of physical abuse right? Well, only partially. Or mostly, depending on how you look at it. One of my most profound memories is of when my m...