Dreams...or nightmares

I had a really disturbing dream last night. I woke up and was really disturbed when I dreamed of a glass full of maggot like things in the bottom, tipping over and flies and other insects crawling all over me. Another part of the dream was that my two sisters were watching and I was crying out for help from them but all they did was continue to discuss between themselves. I don't remember what they were talking about but they were not helping me as I lay in a fetal position right in front of them.

I know I have issues with abandonment and trust between most of my family but I really was surprised to have my oldest sister playing a negative role in this dream.

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