My Path

Moderation is creating healthy boundaries in the things you say or do. For example, spending money would be a big example of where I personally struggle with the virtue of moderation.I don't set a personal budget for myself, and as a consequence I am really bad with impulsive purchases - which leads to my account being overdrawn a lot.This leads to lots of embarrassment, especially when I'm still struggling with things I should, as an adult, already have a grip on. A hard sentiment to cope with, too,is the disservice my parents have shown me by bailing me out of financial difficulty - I've never really had to deal with financial consequences, such as when I cant pay important bills on time. In retrospect, perhaps the only real place I have moderation is in alcohol and speaking. Having moderation in alcohol is a "no-brainer" -my father's family has a tendency to be alcoholic and I've seen it destroy many of them. The benefit of this, perhaps...

I was just minding my own business, talking to a client on the phone and trying to hear what he was saying when I heard what I thought was someone leaving a message on my cell phone. Everyone in the office could hear it, my phone calling me sexy baby and asking if I wanted to meet up on saturday for a night of fun. Now, if you know me you will also realize that I don't have anyone who would call me like that and leave that sort of message, I just don't. So, embarrassed and red faced I put the client on hold and turn off my phone and continue with my day. My da, my boss, walks in and tells me I have to pick up my niece. I let him know what happened, and he promptly tells me that I should figure out who its from and he will call the DA to press charges to whomever it is. I take my phone with me to try and do this, finding something interesting along the way. It wasn't a message or  someone calling to say such obsene things, it was my ringtone that someone had recorded on ...

I had a really disturbing dream last night. I woke up and was really disturbed when I dreamed of a glass full of maggot like things in the bottom, tipping over and flies and other insects crawling all over me. Another part of the dream was that my two sisters were watching and I was crying out for help from them but all they did was continue to discuss between themselves. I don't remember what they were talking about but they were not helping me as I lay in a fetal position right in front of them. I know I have issues with abandonment and trust between most of my family but I really was surprised to have my oldest sister playing a negative role in this dream.

Recently I've taken to a kind of amateur bird watching...Not really going out and looking for particular birds really but just going about my usual activities and keeping an eye out for any avian tag alongs.  One being the common Crow or Raven, I can never remember if there is a distinctions...I've heard that the raven is bigger with a orange beak, with the crow as a smaller bird with a black beak. I've seen many of these birds hanging around my home, and can identify them by sound or sight. Another bird that I only caught a glimpse of was the magpie, I didn't get a chance to take a picture but found one on the internet that matched what I saw. It is really a beautiful bird but beyond what it looks like I really can't say I know very much about it. What really was strange was that while I had never done any research about the bird I KNEW that the bird was indeed a magpie, the name just popped into my head as soon as I saw it. I also found this guy in my backyar...

There is a bit of a debate going on right now on one of the groups that I belong to, relating to the acknowledgement of an Earth Mother in daily/public rituals. I don't know too much about IE religions, I am just starting out on my path really and have alot to learn, but ADF supposedly is a Neopagan group and not a reconstruction of  Ancient Druidry, and while we do share some relationship with it, we are still a MODERN religion. The present view of the earth is of an all-giving mother figure whom should be respected and cared for. Some have argued that while the earth itself is important, it is not the only reason we have life and remain living. In isolation the earth would shrivel up and die, taking us along with it. Without the sun  we would have no vegetation, without the moon there would be not sea life or tides, and without fallen meteorites we would be without many minerals and nutrients. I'm probably oversimpliying it but you get the gist of what I'm trying to ...